“I can also feel in between the purpose of that movement people are screaming « I can’t breathe » for multiple other injustices – like homelessness, abuse, unemployment, other stigmas…. I imagine people are also screaming they can’t breathe because they can’t catch a break in this life.”

I woke up this morning being deeply aware of my breath. 🌱
I opened my blinds and felt the sun on my face. ☀️ I gazed on these beautiful trees 🌳 and these beautiful green leaves being swayed by the fresh morning air, so carefree. « Mommy, this is beautiful! »
she said, standing next to me voicing what I was thinking « yes, baby it is. »
Then I took a deep breath.
As in to let go.
As in to forgive.
As in to live for the beauty of this fleeting moment.
As I was becoming more aware of my breath , the gratefulness flowing in my heart, and letting go of the pain of yesterday, I drifted back to people around the world currently protesting with these words
« I Can’t Breathe. »
I imagine this song not only carries the strong desire for a more equitable world, but I can also feel in between the purpose of that movement that people are screaming « I can’t breathe » for multiple other injustices – like homelessness, like abuse, like unemployment, like stigmas…. I imagine people are also screaming they can’t breathe because they can’t catch a break in this life.
I imagine people are also screaming they can’t breathe because no matter what they do they don’t feel good enough.
Some are even using their last breath to protest #icantbreathe
This brought to surface my fear, my anger, my restlessness, but also my compassion and my willingness to forgive so I don’t wither like a dead plant🌱
And every now and then I wake up to the glory of God in nature and around me and I’m able to breathe …again.
And I want to hold on to that.
With Christ emerging, living in and transforming my whole being, and his holy scriptures as my anchor, I can still love too much, feel too much, see both the goodness and evil in people YET still Feel Safe. Yet still find the strength to breathe.
I would like to think that nothing will ever take that church out of me.
Find your reason to Breathe!